Well its really weird having a Birthday a Parent died on in two days there will be so many mixed emotions. A lot of good thoughts tho I think I will take Ladyferns advice about not letting his death rule my special day, and not go to the graveyard on my birthday ,but go on Saturday instead and put a nice wreath out. And just sit and recap birthday events at daddy's grave then. I am sure he would have love that. I won't be seeing my son either but we will get him saturday also. I am moody today but keeping busy. I am looking forward to sharing a great Birthday with my hubby we are going to eat at the mexican resteraunt he propsed at yeah lol in his truck in the parking lot gave me a box said here you know what this is. Wel lit was Valentine's day lol could have been engagement ring or a Vday gift, I played dum lol I knew he was going to ask he was rubbing my ring finger to much a few weeks prior he denies this. Not sure of our other plans most likely go to gamestop and end up playing video games all night.