WARNING** I will get graphic here so please do not read if you are sensitive to animal pain....I am apologizing now........I am sorry for how this is written........

I am not sure where to begin........This is about pets but not dogs.........I am less emotional now because it happened about 10 hours ago but I am still so angry that having this animal in my sight is not a good thing.........So if this comes out sounding angry and I type some things that make some one angry i am sorry but I just need to spill......please do not respond to the anger before you try to understand how I am feeling........I know doing this will help me to face who i am talking about.....

I have always had animals around me from the time I was a baby and growing up on a farm I learned death pretty early......not just farm animals but pets as well.......So I have become a little desesitized where animal death is concerned unless it is tragic......Last winter my husband bought me a pair of parakeets for Xmas and I just fell in love with them.......one died about a month ago, got another who was sick and died right away and replaced that one as well so I had the two again and loved to hear them in the morning........

My sons got be a beautiful little kitten for mothers day and Curly became my everything after my cat Kreature had to be put down in july....Curly loves to kiss every one and lay all over my chest and shoulders.......

Curly has been around the birds and Itrained him not t bat the cage......the other cats do not even care about the birds........The new bird got out and Curly snapped.......I watched my beloved cat snatch my bird out of the air and kill it before i could get to it.......he then ran out side and hid and we still have not found it.......

I was so horrorified because even though I am used to finding dead mice and things on my porch I have never seen one animal kill another in my life......

I screamed for my husband and told him to keep the cat away or I would strangle it.......I was crying and could hardly breathe because I was so angry and I still feel horror at seeing the image in my head...I would never hurt my cat or any animal but I cannot bare to look at him at all.....He has come in to eat and all I can do is feel disgust at him.........and he goes right back outside........

My anger towards Curly has gotten a little better but it might be days before I can hold him again andhe cries outside........I know it is not his fault because he did what cats do but that does not stop how i feel right now and being away from him is better for us both.......Some of you might be angry at what I am saying and that is fine BUT......I heard the wings snap.......I heard the bird scream and I felt his pain when it happened and it will take awhile for that to lessen in me.......

If it was one of my dogs that did that to another pet I would feel the same because I have always had the uncanny ability to feel what my animals are feeling in extreme cases.........

Since I have never really expierenced this before I am not sure what to do......I cant hold my cat right now......I cant even look at him........and yes I believe that cats feel rejection just like dogs do.......

Right now instead of anger and horror i just feel sad over the loss of my bird........and sad that my beautiful Curly did it...........

I feel empty now........thanks for letting me spill.......dont know where i am going for the right now but it can only get better after coming here........

I can understand your feelings but I do find it curious that having grown up on a farm you say you never saw one animal kill another?  I spent a lot of time on farms growing up but even just at my house I remember seeing our cats kill mice, ...it happens.  Nature can sometimes be cruel.  A cats instinct is to kill mice, birds, etc. so your cat was only doing what comes naturally.

For myself, I would never have a bird while I kept a cat in the house ( not a big deal as I'm not a "bird" person anyway).  I would also never keep a pet rat while I have rat terriers....and I loved my pet rats....but I plan on always having rat terriers so keeping a rodent as a pet is just out for me.  Too risky and I wouldn't want to experience seeing them killed if they got loose.

You simply cannot trust a cat NOT to harm a bird. Or a mouse.  I wouldn't trust my rat terriers not to either but certainly not a cat as they are a little "sneakier" about it.  I'm sorry you lost your bird and had to see the death.

While we are all aware of cats & mice, birds, ratties, rodents, etc. and prey drive, that certainly does NOT make it any less traumatic when witnessed.  I am SO SORRY you had to go through that and for your loss.  I couldn't have stated it any better than Danbeau...time will heal, but allow yourself to grieve and recover.  Again I am so sorry for what you went through

Julie

Oh Tina I am so sorry. I cannot even imagine how heartbreaking this must be for you. As someone else said, make sure someone is tending to Curly's needs. It will take time but I truly believe you will allow him back in your heart. Right now you need to grieve for your bird.(((((hugs)))))))

Second attempt at a reply.my screen blinked out during the first try.....

Dan,

Thank you for the reply. Yes some one will be here to watch him since there are 5 others who live here.

Everyone,

I really appreciate all of your words. They help so very much. Omalley, the bird left, is now my daughters bird and is in a place with other birds and is safe........

Yes it will take some time before Curly is welcome back into my arms but it ill happen......

Again thank you all.........