Okay well, starting will first off Guen is ajusting 100% better than I thought she would although the tore up the carpet in our bedroom the second day of moving. Daniel and I had a talk about things and its alittle better. He even bought me new couches yes the money could have gone to better use like a washer/dryer, since we don't have those, but I wont complain.  After the intial moving(still some left to get moved in), we went to go see the Cronicles of Narnia, and took me out to eat, this was the first time and months we've even done any thing like this. What made this so good was he just looked at me said lets go get dressed, heck I had no clue so I did and what a wonderful surprise.  So while we where out enjoying each other there was a lot of talking and things are looking up, but we have both agreeded to try harder with this, he even stayed off the computer just to sit around and watch movies all night with me . We both have an understanding that if things go truly sour that it is for the best to go separte ways but, because we do love each other that we should give it a try. But the best part is he has been working really hard to make up for all the bad that has happened, he now understands how he was treating me, and me with him(I'm wanting a college degree so bad I was taking that out on him.). Now he has been acting like the fun and enjoyable person that I fell inlove with to begin with, now just to fix my flaws of losing my selfconfidince and getting back the person that I was then to. Funny how you change when theres no reason to. Oh here is the funny part of it all, I'm sure I've talked on here about not having my car fixed since around November of last year, well Daniels dad found the problem I had a bad tire, every could have been fixed months ago if Daniel had checked the freaking tire. Silly boy, I've taken every ones advice to heart and looked deeply into my own, after alot of reading between the lines and seeing things from every view, I also saw that it wasn't just him but me as well. Thank you all, I might not have support here at home but for every one here you are all that I needed. Thank You. I'm definately going to slow down and enjoy life more and quit trying to go after what I want and work for what I need most, my Regan,(and Guen). |